It’s late, and I just wrapped up my class at Towson. It’s been a long day, as all Wednesdays are when school is in session at Towson U; I had a few thoughts along the way today, though, which I wanted to share with you tonight.
- I hate getting older. I really do. I am at the age now where I feel like I blinked and suddenly I’m wondering how in the world I got to be almost 46.
- The good thing about this blink-and-WHOA feeling is that I’m not feeling regret. I really make every effort to live a full life, getting the most out of every moment.
- Maybe that’s the problem. I love life too much, and I don’t like the idea of this feeling ever ending.
- I also can’t stand that some people will always see me in one dimension: Just a father or Just a teacher. As genuine and authentic as I try to live my life, not playing this particular role or that, to some I’ll always be seen in that one dimension.
- Maybe, then, this indicates an imbalance in the amount of time I spend with others as “just rus” and not in a particular role. Maybe I need to get out more and just enjoy this life with my friends and peers who will get to know me in that “just rus” way.
- I think I love how writing can lead to such breakthroughs.
Wow….Ok. Maybe that’s what I need to do then (it’s not like my friends and peers haven’t been encouraging me all these years to do this).
Have a good night, Faithful Readers. Thanks for letting me air that out tonight. 🙂