I want you to do me a favor. As you read through this post, think of something that you have been trying desperately to change in your life. Maybe it’s procrastination, or some form of addiction (food, nicotine, alcohol), or a health-related behavior. Whatever it is, make the next five minutes personal.
In June 2000 (yes, that was nearly 11 years ago), I walked out of my doctor’s office, beaming. He was absolutely thrilled with my extreme makeover that I had achieved over the previous 14 months. My blood tests were all normal, I had dropped over 80 pounds, and I had cut my HDL levels in half. My life as a vegan had paid off in every positive way possible.
So what did I do? I went out to celebrate by going to a pizza joint and, yes, eat lots of pizza loaded with extra cheese.
Since that afternoon, I have started, stopped, failed, and repeated the ugly cycle of trying to manage my weight–over and over again, so frequently that I genuinely believe I have trained my body to just wait it out. Soon enough, I’ll give up, and obesity will win once more.
If you search my blog for words like “diet,” “exercise,” “weight,” and “obesity,” you’ll see the ugly truth. Genuine starts, abrupt stops, and abysmal fails. Over and over and over.
Pathetic, I know.
What is different about that stretch of 14 months and every other attempt made since then?
Don’t give me some song and dance about getting older. I’ve got plenty of friends who have overcome their weight issues. They are running 5Ks, half-marathons, and participating in extreme mud runs and trail rides.
Something just snapped in each of them. They struggled for years and then, suddenly, they are walking endorsements for some magical product that helped them along the way.
I mean, that’s how it had to happen for each of them, right?
I’m thinking wrong. If they are anything like I was in 2000, they have something that they are immensely proud of, something that separates them from all the rest of us.
It’s attitude. And not just an upbeat, let’s go-get-’em attitude. I’m talking an attitude that is laced with obscenities and gestures too heavy for my family-friendly blog. An attitude that dismisses all temptations and embraces only what contributes toward that end goal: Perfect Health.
It has to be that. Right? I mean, what else can it be? I’ve tried everything these past 11 years. Various diets, exercise routines, trainers, counting calories, low carb, vegan, vegetarian, high protein. You name it, I’ve put my body through it.
The one thing that’s missing from all of these things is Attitude, a genuine desire to do whatever is necessary to meet that goal.
Now, think about that thing in your life that you want so desperately to change. Have you met with success in the past? And when you did, what was the final ingredient that made everything come together for you?
Was it Attitude?
I haven’t had that these past 11 years, and I am hoping that, with the right attitude, I’ll be able to meet with success again.
I have to be in boot camp, military-style. I need to stay the course and not be persuaded or derailed in any away by the suggestions, the temptations, the skepticism.
In other words, I need to find that attitude again that I had in 1999/2000. Nothing and no one got in my way then. Ever.
I need to get that swag back. That tone in my voice, that attitude that offers no alternatives but meeting my goal.
Is this the only way I’ll ever be able to get control of my own obesity and health issues?
I want to start March 4, the day after my birthday, and just run with it. I want it to dominate my life and make me healthy again. I resign to it all and put my full faith in that attitude to get me through the obstacles that have stopped me countless times in these past 11 years.
Attitude. Did it save you? Do you think it can ever save you again?